Be Present

There was a time in my life that I wrote those two simple words on my hand everyday. It was there to remind me, to snap me back into reality, to focus on living into that day.

Lately it has been hard to be present. It is hard to fully live in the now when both the past and future are so uncertain. It is easier for me to untangle the messy past or solve the future question marks than to answer my mind and heart's question "where are you? how are you?"

In the past few months I have begun to learn how to slow down my wandering thoughts and let my true self speak. It has been painful to come to the reality that maybe I don't have a quick and honest answer to how I am and where I am. But as I slow down, as I practice moments of being present I get this unbelievable sense of relief- like I have met myself, if only for a moment.

Being present when...

I am reading a letter from a dear friend

at the most beautiful wedding

having dinner on the deck with just James, Dave, Jack, Mason and Nora

creating something that is so delicious

cutting into my own creation