November 16, 2008

most like myself


I started a new journal in June in hopes of getting a fresh start of understanding myself. I decided that at the end of every entry I would write one line that started with the phrase "I feel most like myself when..."

Here are some of my most like myself thoughts:

When I take naps on blankets in the park and let the sun keep me warm.

When I let that joy out. When I let the child laugh.

When I listen to stories that have aged with time, stories that make me want to live more

When I sit on the deck for dinner at 10:30pm.

When I feel loved.

When I write letters, poems and words on paper, when it feel likes my soul bleeds ink.

When I travel.

When I process it, let it out.

When I realize I am capable of loving and knowing I want to.

When I accept I have ugly parts of me. i do not like it, but I acknowledge it is there.

When I acknowledge that it hurts, when I do not hide from the pain.

When I discuss life with friends.

When I am home with music, wine and candles.

When I am at the beach- when I can smell salt water, hear seagulls and dance upon beached logs.

When I try to put myself in someone else's shoes.

I can only hope that the list gets longer as I continue to discover who I am.

1 comment:

ryan said...

these are good things.

i really like that you write this stuff in your journal!

be well on this fine day, friend.