Many of my good friends are returning from Beyond soon. I am thrilled to have them back in the city, to be able to go on coffee dates again or long walks. I am also nervous. I have this idea that if you go up to the magic inlet in the Jarvis you will come back a different person, your life will be changed forever. This is true, usually... I have also held onto the notion that that type of growth and change cannot happen anywhere else. You cannot be impacted in a more profound way than if you spend a summer up at Beyond. Well my summer has simply proven that wrong, made me realize that I was a fool to think that.
This summer really is about the great return, I came home this summer, I made the skin I am in my home. It sounds funny but I truly started to live in myself, accept myself and all the consequences that that brings. Most importantly I came home to the Lord. My faith/trust in the Lord was on hold for about 2 years. But I finally returned, with nothing to offer and everything to humbly ask for.
I have finally realized that change will happen anywhere, there is no place on this earth that God will not rock your world and change how you see it. So I am still nervous because I automatically think their summers will have been better, more romantic and full of adventure but I realize I cannot compare my summer with theirs. I have something special that happened in this beautiful city. I have started to claim ownership over myself, become intentional and passionate about pursuing the Lord and found joy in thousands of small moments.
And so I have returned, I don't know where I went but I know I needed to go and I know that I needed to return.
